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The Time Has Come

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 09 July 2018 · 303 views

There comes a point in everyone’s life when they have to take control.

For the past year or so, I’ve been stuck. I’ve been stuck in a seemingly endless cycle of negativity. I’ve toyed around with the same potential remedies; I’ve contemplated every avenue I could to break away from these feelings. Nothing. And more nothing.

Most of the duration of this darker period, I was working on a novel. It started out as a mere exercise to take my fears and ambitions and see where I could take them when I virtually had no limit. What came out of creating this novel was a new solution to my problem—as well as my favorite piece of writing that I’ve ever made.

Perhaps the best art comes from those deeper, sometimes darker places within ourselves. I’ve never been so stuck on characters, so stuck on a story in my life. I [i]needed[/i] to tell this story, because I felt that writing this story would give me all the answers that I was looking for. And, in a way, [i]it did[/i].

There’s something about taking what you’re afraid of and attacking it head on. And the way that [i]I [/i]do that is through words. Words hold so much power, and the more that I write, the more I find it to be more true.

When I finished the novel, I felt a strange yet monumental [i]relief[/i]. The creation of something through trials is a feat that is unparalleled. And I’ll admit, I was a little sad when I finished it. But the book had helped me in a way that I never imagined. It opened my mind and suddenly, like magic, I understood things better.

Now, I’m not saying that I had some kind of sudden epiphany as soon as I wrote the words “The End” but there was a type of clarity. A major theme of the novel is power, and reclaiming our own power. And that was when I realized I had lost my own power and that [i]I [/i](and only I) could reclaim it.

It was time for me to take control. Time for me to reclaim the power that I had lost somewhere on my journey of life. Time to stop replaying the same pointless solutions to the problems that I had.

We all have Power. We are beings of triumph. Never forget that.


The Ritual of New

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 26 December 2017 · 378 views

[font=tahoma]As with all things, an ending comes sooner or later. And we are quickly approaching the end of another year. My, time really flies. It seems that as each year comes, it goes by faster and faster, and pretty soon, I’ll be an old man, wondering where the hell my life has gone. [/font]

[font=tahoma]Maybe that’s the curse of adulthood. Once you reach a certain age, time speeds up. Maybe the key to being youthful forever lays within childhood. Maybe it has to do with being carefree, and seeing the world in a more innocent—yet raw—light. I’ve been writing again. I’m back in cycle, and I have to say I’ve never felt more carefree and excited than I have now.[/font]

[font=tahoma]Writing this novel has made me reevaluate my entire life. It’s made me step out of my own metaphorical box and really broaden my thinking. I’m taking the whole world in, and it’s a mind-blowing concept for me. I think that’s how you know you’re growing as a writer, and as a person, when you stop thinking about surface level ideas.[/font]

[font=tahoma]It’s the time of year where people want to change themselves, they initiate the cycle of [i]New Year, New Me.[/i] And what more ritualistic concept is there? There’s nothing wrong with this thinking; I find that it’s a very awesome aspect, to want to change and want to grow. It makes me wonder what other rituals we as humans engage in. From now on, I’m going to refer to the beginning of a new year as “The Ritual of New.” [/font]

[font=tahoma]So, whatever plans you guys have for The Ritual of New, I hope they are fantastic and that they change your life for the better. I wish good health, prosperity, and love as we go into the New Year, and I want to see all of you thrive. May all the changes you want to make come to fruition. May whatever fears you hold be vanquished as you realize your inner power.[/font]


[font=tahoma]P.S. If you guys want to know more about this new novel, or just writing things in general, feel free to check out my [url="https://twitter.com/JordanAdams1128"]Twitter[/url] and [url="https://www.instagram.com/jordan_adams1128/"]Instagram[/url] pages. I post excerpts of writings on both. Thanks![/font]


The Beginning of the Cycle (How Writing is My Therapy)

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 24 September 2017 · 249 views

[font=georgia]I have officially come full-circle again.[/font]

[font=georgia]This cyclical way of my life baffles me—every time it comes back around, I am still struck with surprise and shock. One would think that after experiencing it my whole life, I’d get used to it by now. It’s like I fall into an unexpected slumber mentally (still physically awake, of course, but consciously… blank). These periods come with the normal ups and downs of my life, and it’s something about this time of year that really gets me going.[/font]

[font=georgia]I’m working on a new novel, and it feels so good to say that. That alone is how I know that I’m starting a new cycle—a new cycle of conscious expansion, of adventure, of pushing myself into new territories. During my off-season (as I like to call it) I rarely write. I rarely read. I rarely do any of the things that cause me to grow mentally. It’s like I absorb everything during this period, and then let it all loose when I’m back in action.[/font]

[font=georgia] In January of this year, I released a book via Amazon, and there was a lot of internal excitement and anxiety with that—this was a story I’d held on to for many years, written over the course of my teenager years, always seeming to change. It was a tremendous relief to finally get it out to the public, whether it be good, bad, or ugly. I felt that I [i]needed[/i] to release it, just so that I could move on. Only, the release of that brought upon the End of the Cycle. The excitement faded, and I didn’t write anything or do anything after its release.[/font]

[font=georgia]I’m happy to say that the gears are turning again, the engine is warming up, and the train is in the process of leaving the station. I’ve only recently noticed that I almost unconsciously touch on personal things in my writing, whether it be through a character’s actions or feelings. I don’t go in planning on that, it comes out silently, like little phantoms of a haunted house that creep up unsuspectingly on any patrons. I go into a trance when I write, and it isn’t until I come out that I realize that I’d had my own little therapy session.[/font]

[font=georgia]And that’s how I know that writing isn’t just something I do. It goes beyond book sales and genres and “what’s selling.” With the risk of sounding exceptionally cliché, writing lets me bare my soul. Sure, there are characters we create. There’s whole worlds we design. But in every little aspect of what we write, there are pieces of ourselves laced within the words, and it’s important to be aware of that. Writing (for me, at least) isn’t something I strictly do to earn money (although I hope it becomes lucrative for me down the road) but it literally keeps me from losing my mind. It allows self-assessment without judgement. It lets us analyze our fears and insecurities in a way that isn’t negative. It literally saves our lives.[/font]

[font=georgia]So, whether you have “off-seasons” like myself or not, I hope all is going well in your lives, and that you are prosperous in everything you do.[/font]

[font=georgia]Until next time,[/font]



Knowing When To Move On

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 07 January 2017 · 415 views

[font='lucida sans unicode']There comes a time in life when you have to realize whether you’re made to be something or not. I would not do well as a mathematician, because math is not my best subject. I would not thrive as an artist, because my artistic skills range between stick figures and terrible squares. Where I do feel is my passion—my heart and soul, my entire being—is writing.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Perhaps it’s me finally channeling my younger self when I come to terms with what I want to do in life—including how I plan on getting there—but I’ve come to realize this: I’m tired of sitting and waiting for something to happen, tired of trying to figure out if I was doing something [i]wrong[/i], whether I was really cut out for this area, [i]my[/i] area of writing.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I’m tired of waiting. I want this thing bad enough to where I’m willing to get my work out there in the most quality, authentic way possible, which is why, in about a week and a half, my first YA Fantasy novel—the same one whose query I’ve been work-shopping on here—is going to be released via Amazon (and many other areas) in both paperback and Kindle format.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I’m not saying that pursuing traditional publishing is just waiting, because I know that that’s [i]how[/i] traditional publishing works. But I’m just tired of waiting. I want to get my work out there, and promote it, and I want people to read it and enjoy it, like I enjoyed writing it.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I can’t thank you guys enough for the constant feedback and help you’ve given me. I might not be on here as often because I’ll be busy with writing, promoting, school, etc. I just wanted to get on here and make this statement. I love you all, and I wish you the best in your lives and writing endeavors.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Until I post again,[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Jordan The Ninja[/font]


My Novella is Published!

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 12 December 2016 · 295 views

So it's been awhile since I've used this blog on here (you guys should go follow my legitimate blog, link below!) but I've been putting in work on releasing this novella and I'm excited to announce that it's finally live on the amazon Kindle store. I know, I know, it's not that big of deal, but it's my first real step into the publishing world. I wanna thank everyone for all the years of support and help, and I hope for many more years to come here on AQC.

For a little more info on the release (such as a cover and link to it on Amazon) just click [url="https://mylifeandtimes.wordpress.com/2016/12/12/my-novella-is-published/"]here[/url]. It'll take you to my official blog post.


My Official Blog Is Up!

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 27 October 2016 · 256 views

So, in deciding to establish an official blog, I've created one via WordPress. I find this to be a new exciting avenue as I continue with publishing and establishing friendships and connections with other writers. Stop on by, if you like, and follow as well! It's barren at the moment as it was just established. Thank you!



The End of This Chapter of Life

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 11 October 2016 · 275 views

[font='lucida sans unicode']I have trouble with holding on to things. I have a tendency to linger more in my past than the present. I hold on to people who have gone, I hold on to memories that should simply stay memories, and I hold on to periods of my life where I was happy. On the surface, this doesn’t seem like much of a bad thing; what’s wrong with holding on to the past if it made you happy?[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I need to admit something: I am not happy. Every person’s definition of happiness varies, but for me, I can say that I have not truly been happy for a long time now. My pre-existing knack for clinging to the old, the better times, is kicking in but it’s not enough now. [/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Since I’m the writer of my life, I’m choosing to end this darker chapter of my life now. I need to get myself back to the place I used to be in. I yearn to feel the same excitement and elation that comes with a new bout of creativity—I feel that, slowly, it is inkling back into my life, bringing revival with it.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']The scariest part is deciding when enough is enough, and that you cannot settle for unhappiness. Life is way too short to deprive yourself of the things that bring you joy. The best growth I’ve ever experienced during these times is that you can choose to change your situation. You have the power to vanquish its hold on you. So, if you are going through a dark chapter in your life, consider writing its ending, and starting on a much happier chapter as opposed to just waiting for it to end.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']As writers, we’re powerful. We craft whole stories, breathe characters into being, create entire universes. We can implement our power to alter our lives, and make it into something unbelievable. No, you may not be the richest or the most famous, but you can be the happiest you’ve ever been, and I’ve quickly come to learn that happiness is one of the most valuable things one can have.[/font]


The Dark Times

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 08 September 2016 · 337 views

[center][size=5][color=rgb(24,24,24)][font=Merriweather]“There are darknesses in life and there are lights, and you are one of the lights, the light of all lights.” [/font][/color][/size]
[color=rgb(24,24,24)][font=Merriweather]― [/font][/color][url="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/6988.Bram_Stoker"]Bram Stoker[/url][color=rgb(24,24,24)][font=Merriweather], [/font][/color][color=rgb(24,24,24)][font=Merriweather][url="http://www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/3165724"]Dracula[/url][/font][/color][/center]

[font='lucida sans unicode']There was a brief amount of time within the last year or so where I was in this strange state of being. I didn’t really write. I didn’t feel passionate or driven to. I didn’t really feel like doing anything anymore; it was a dark period for me. My life wasn’t bad, but I just didn’t have any desire. And it was one of the worst feelings to experience.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I imagined living a free life, with no responsibilities – a real life Neverland where I could just be an adventurer and not have to deal with adult reality. Where there were no bills to pay or a job to go to. Honestly, I [i]still[/i] desire that. I was stuck, in the deepest way, in a rut that I feared I would never get out of. I was not happy. I felt like I was going crazy. I did not want to indulge in the normal things that I used to do: write, read, explore various outlets for my creativity. I was a shell of my former self. And it wasn’t something that happened right away, it was bred over the course of time, created out of my own personal fear of things in my life.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Everyone has dark days. Dark times. Where the sun is hidden and the monsters come out to play. I am no different. For the longest time, I truly felt I would never feel a normal type of happy. It wasn’t until recently that I started searching for that happiness I once had. I was tired of feeling like I did, like I[i] still[/i] do to be honest. I wrote some short stories and I felt a little bit of life come back; I was using my creative muscle once again, a muscle that had atrophied from lack of use. It was a beautiful, familiar thing.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I have not found the happiness I once had, but I feel I may be on the ride road. The whole entire point of this blog post was to be honest with myself and to show that we are all human and we all have our dark days or even our dark times. But I know for a fact that not all our days will be dark. There [i]are[/i] sunny skies, there [i]is[/i] happiness. There [i]will[/i] be creative expression and love and all of those beautiful things.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']So slowly, I’m getting back there. I’m back to writing, not only as an outlet, but as a means of survival. I know how it feels when I don’t write—my body isn’t the same. My mind isn’t the same. I’m sick more often. It’s literally as if I [i]have[/i] to write, otherwise I will wither and die. It’s something I was always meant to do, and I’m wondering if these dark times were to show me that I should never give up on the things I love.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']And you shouldn’t either. Whatever you love, whatever you’re passionate about doing, go after that damn thing. Don’t hesitate, don’t neglect your soul of what it needs.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I've decided to share a story with you guys, it was one I wrote during these dark times, and the content of it definitely shows that. I don't know I feel about the story because there are a lot of negative emotions attached to it, but I do feel that if you want a peak at the rawness I was feeling, feel free to look at it.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']And if you are going through dark periods, don't be afraid to talk to people you trust and love. People care about you, and they want to help you. And take time to do something you love doing every day.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Until next time, I hope you're all doing well, wherever you are, however your life is going.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Jordan[/font]


^ the story


The Life and Times of Jordan Adams

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 19 November 2015 · 373 views

[font='lucida sans unicode']Hello, hello, hello.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']It feels like it has been eons. Ages. As if the world has overcome me in the sense of passing. By this, I’m referring to my absence in many things. From this fantastic website. From any major writing. College life as well as work life have consumed most of my available free time. Trust, I’ve had fleeting story ideas, all of which do not return once they pass through the gigantic filter that is my brain. I’ve finally found time to write something that was non-academic and not bound by the rules of an essay, so for the first time in a long time it feels good to write something with entirely my own freedom.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']I’m quickly approaching my 20[sup]th[/sup] birthday, and I’m feeling old. Now, of course, I know that it’s silly of me to feel this way (it’s not like I should fear getting AARP letters in the mail, or start considering nursing home options) but this literal transition from teenager to adulthood is a little daunting to me. I think it’s because of this beautiful, man-made thing I call [i]time[/i] that has me afraid. We are all governed by our own metaphorical hour-glass that will one day run out of sand. And each grain drop terrifies me.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Funny enough, it wasn’t even until very recently (about the start of this semester) that I began to feel this sense of having no time. As if not just my own, but the [i]whole world[/i]'[i]s[/i][i] [/i]hourglass was about to drop its last grain. Perhaps it is merely my own fears projected onto my view of the universe, but I cannot shake this feeling. I do not know what this means, but I hope the feeling goes away. It is hard for me to fathom the future; where will my writing go? Will I have a wife and kids? What will happen?[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']There are so many things that I imagine when I consider my future. But what if there is not as much time as I imagined? What if things were indeed about to wrap up? The writer in me enjoys toying with this idea of having no time, but the “self” version of me is very uncertain. There are many firsts that I still want to experience; many things I still wanted to accomplish. The bits and pieces of poetry/writing that I’ve done over the past six months or so have had a dominating (and perhaps not so underlying) theme of “time” and the lack of it.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']The reason that this is happened is because there are no filters with my writing. I write what I feel, what I’m afraid of. It is therapeutic for me. If I create characters and stories that are of things I’m afraid of or things that make me sad, it makes me stronger towards it somehow. Don’t ask me why; my brain is very weird that way. So here is just another example of that—I’m writing about time and how much it scares me.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Everything comes to an end sooner or later; all things go. I feel like everyone subconsciously is aware of this, but, naturally, they don’t want to talk about it. I’m on both sides of the fence—no, I do not want to talk about the end of things, but at the same time, you can’t [i]avoid[/i] [i]it[/i]. So why not discuss it? Why not share ideas and theories and stories? Stories are one of my favorite things (if you haven’t already figured that out already) and guess what? All stories have an end. Everyone is living their own story right now. It had a beginning, is currently experiencing the middle, and will one day reach its end. So if we think of life as just one big metaphorical book, I know how to handle that. I can grasp this concept.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']At the end of it all, at the most basic fundamentals of life, regardless of what religion you believe in, we are eternal beings. We are not here for this brief amount of time. We were not created for that purpose, to just be born and then die and become nothing. With that, I find some comfort, that perhaps while we will one day reach the end of one era, it will not truly be the end of myself.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']The thought of being able to write forever is comforting, but more comforting is the fact that, no matter how it all plays out, it is not truly the end.[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Until next time,[/font]

[font='lucida sans unicode']Jordan[/font]


Growth and Awareness

Posted by JordanTheNinja , 26 March 2015 · 392 views
growth, writing, character
[font=tahoma]There comes a time in everyone’s life (I’m not exclusively talking about a writer’s life) where you really come to a sense of awareness. Awareness of who you are, what you love to do, the kind of person that you are. And, as I approach the ending of my teenage years, I feel as if I’m on the brink of this realization.[/font]

[font=tahoma]When I was younger (and I still do this) I looked up to people who showed ambition and who always brought other people up and encouraged and inspired them. This inspired [i]me[/i] to be the same way whenever I got older and I got into my profession. Now, years later, I’ve developed into a writer. I’ve always loved writing, but when I say that, I mean it in the most personal, emotional sense. I never realized that the characters I wrote about all had different facets of my personality—or attributes I [i]wish[/i] I had. Emotion is the key when I write, because, without realizing it, writing was a way for me to express my fears and my desires and everything that went on in my head. I never knew that until I looked back at my characters and saw that, as I grew, so did that. They weren’t the same people I wrote when I was 14, just like I’m not the same person I was then. And I think that’s what is really crucial in a writer’s life. Not to write for fame or money (not that I wouldn’t mind getting paid to write) but to do it for your soul. To show your growth as a human being. For me, this is what it means to write—to examine [i]yourself[/i] in the process, and show others different parts of your soul.[/font]

[font=tahoma]I know now that I will never stop writing. Not because I want to get published (although I do) but because I [i]have[/i] to. It’s the only real way—for me—to analyze my life and how I’ve grown and where I came from. I don’t know if other writer do that, but I’m pretty sure they do without knowing it.[/font]

[font=tahoma]Young or old, seasoned or a newbie, I truly wish every writer out there is able to tell their story, and I hope that every single one of you becomes successful. Even that—I hope everyone becomes successful in whichever career, job, ambition they are pursuing. I promise I will spend my life pursuing the things I desire (non-material) and won’t stop pushing for inspiration in others. I want to see us all win and grow and develop.[/font]

[font=tahoma]I wish you all the best.[/font]

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